9/3/08 Wed: Reality Check & Chats with Stuffed Animals

Current Mood: Sad

Well, reality finally hit Mommy and she had a melt down today. Jayden got lots of extra loving hugs and attention today. (not that he gets any less from day to day, Mommy dearly loves having her little man with her all day long!)

Mommy got slapped in the face with reality today because upon looking at the calendar she realized that in a little over 3 weeks this beloved part of our Mother and Son daily journey of being home together will be over. Mommy is having a very VERY hard time dealing with this. (Dare I say I'm even considering selling my organs on the black market to make enough money to be able to stay home!)

Mommy hates to have to cart Jayden off to daycare, even though he will be very well taken care of there. Mommy is going to be an absolute WRECK going back to work. Jayden will be missed so badly. VERY BADLY! We are talking immense here...lol. (Oh my poor co-workers. I shall warn them upon my return that everyone needs to be well stocked in tissues!)

Mommy jokes with Daddy that he needs to hurry and win the lottery so she can stay home with little man all the time. Mommy waited so long for little man to come, that she doesn't want to miss anything. Mommy doesn't want some "other" person telling her about a milestone that was hit while she was stuck at work. Nobody can rock little man to sleep like Mommy. Nobody can sing the little off key songs that Mommy sings. Nobody can kiss away a tear, or hold a hand, or rub a back, or make goofy silly faces like Mommy can. And Mommy doesn't want anyone else to take over any of those Mommy duties! Even though millions of people have kids and go back to work every day, now Mommy understands how completely and utterly heartbreaking it is for so many. **sigh**

OK, now onto the cute pics above! Jayden is getting more active and alert so today we played with some stuffed animals. He loves the little dino because it makes this RARRRRRR noise that makes his eyes go as big as saucers! In the one picture it looks like mister puppy dog and Jayden have some kind of deal to jointly attack Mommy with kisses when she least expects it! Or maybe they are just both going to pee at the same time so Mommy has a nice mess. Yeah, the second one is probably truer....lol.